Forever & Always

So Far Away From Where You Are...

So far away from where you are...
These miles have torn us worlds apart.
And I miss you
Yeah I  miss you.
So far away from where you are.
I'm Standing underneath the stars.
And I wish you, were here.
I miss the years that were erased.
And I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face.
I miss all the little things.
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me.
Yeah I miss you.
And I wish you were here.
I feel the beating of your heart.
I see the shadows of your face
& just know that where ever you are,
I miss you
and I wish you were here.
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me.
yeah I miss you
& I wish you were here.
So far away from where you are.
these miles have torn us worlds apart.
and I miss you.
yeah I miss you.
and I wish you, were here. 

Finding someone who accepts you for you and loves you with everything they have is probably the best feeling anyone could have. 

Not having to pretend to be someone else when your around them, is an even better. 

Love is beautiful. 

I find someone who loves me. & kisses my scars and still tells me I'm beautiful. 

Life Ain't Always Beautiful.

Have you ever just felt like giving up? Like nobody cares? That your alone in this cold cold world? I have. And I'm sure many people have... It's hard. 
But I learned something through out all of my trouble.. "The Struggles Make You Stronger". And that's a fact and a promise. 
I'm only 14 years old and have been through some of the toughest things.. Maybe tougher then some adults have been through. And no I'm not talking deaths in the family or just having a bad day at school. I mean being beaten and locked in a closet, or being starved. And the sad thing is, it was all done by my so called "Father".  
About 4-5 years ago, never did I think that I would be in the place that I am today. I feel amazing. Yeah I have been diagnosed with depression among many other things, but never have I let any of that stop me. I'm stronger then ever now. And I feel like I could take on the world.. Which leads me back to my saying: "The Struggles Make You Stronger". 

I can't explain the people I see on a daily basis that are deep in depression and can't afford to get help. Friends, Family, or even just people I meet. And it's sad to remember that at one time, I was at that point. But I promise you, it may seem like things never will get better, but one day, eventually, things will get better.

Life ain't always beautiful, sometimes its just plain hard. Well life can knock you down, it can break your heart. Life ain't always beautiful, you think your on your way. And its just a dead end road at the end of the day. But the struggles make you stronger, and the changes make you wiser.And happiness has its own way of taking its sweet time. No life aint always beautiful. Tears will fall sometimes. Life ain't always beautiful. But its a beautiful ride. 

What's The Dad's Role?

It all started when my parent's got divorced when I was 3. I was getting tossed from household to household several days of the week and every other weekend. It got old and tireing and I was just a little girl..

My mother practically raised me. When I was with my father I was shipped away to my grandmas house which is the only place I was fed and bathed on a daily basis besides when I was at my mom's.
My dad had alot of problems. From not being able to raise kids, to being an alcoholic. I was used to not being a "Daddy's Girl" like most of my friends were.

I had multiple issues with my father. From physical abuse, to just making me cook me & my brothers own meals in the oven by the time I was 7. If I didn't cook, we went hungry, or simply just lived off of poptarts. We all know of course, none of that is healthy for a kid at any age.

At later ages, I finally realized everything that was happening. My dad didn't care about anyone but himself. Sadly about 2 years ago, I got into a conflict with my dad that caused me to stop seeing my family and no longer see or better yet even speak to my father.

At this point, I realize you should never take anything in your life for granted because you never realize how fast things can be taken away from you.

Think suicide is cowardly? No. Whats cowardly is bulling someone so much to the point that they WANT to end their own life. Suicide takes the lives of nearly 30,000 Americans every year. Thats sad. Suicide is never the answer. Although, some people don't know that & they think suicide is the only way to set themselves free. Know someone who wants to commit suicide? Get them help. YOU can make a difference. One of my bestfriends attempted suicide and because I spoke up, I saved a life...Make a difference.